Back Again..... Installment #2 in what brings me to the current day in my so called life!!

As I stated earlier, I have been in and out of jails and institutions as a result of my tumultuous affair with Heroin. I had a good uninterrupted run with sobriety (not my first semi long-term hiatus) from November 15th, 2008 - September 16th, 2009, but that having been my most recent is the one I will refer to. I again returned to active addiction that fine September day and alot of what happened from then until my return to sanity (if that’s what you want to call it, I still feel crazy as a loon)  I won’t go into full detail to protect those involved unless I receive their permission. I will say this, it happened quickly and before I knew it I was right back in a drug induced hell. Lying to everyone I associated with, stealing to fuel the fire that was again coursing thru my veins I wandered the streets aimlessly just me and a duffle bag full of filthy clothing. As other times I had some sobriety under my belt and returned to the drugs and insanity I again reached lower bottoms than before. Living in abandoned buildings on the west side of Chicago, associating with prostitutes, thieves and others I normally would not. This run found me at the end completely and totally mentally, physically and spiritually bankrupt wanting nothing more than to die. I attempted on a few occasions to do just that and for some reason I just guess it just wasn’t my time to go. There must be some higher purpose I was put here to serve that maybe I am yet unable to see. I had a few close friends with whom I kept in touch with, constantly urging me to come back from the Dark Side. After a long enough beating I picked up the phone and cried out for help. Those cries were quickly answered; I ended up in Haymarket Center for detox on January 2, 2010. This brings me to where I am today, 40 days clean and sober and writing this blog.

And Away We Go!!

Again, my name is Christo and I AM A Heroin Addict........




Lets back up just a little, I started on my downward spiral (from my recollection) sometime in the spring / summer of 1996. After the end of a long term relationship with a woman I had spent 4 years with I moved back in with my parent’s home at the ripe old age of 25. My younger brother had shortly before this graduated high school; let’s just say a huge party was in the making. Fueled by overindulgence in Alcohol and Cocaine amongst other substances. Usually being up for three - four days at a time. These long cocaine and alcohol binges really started to take a toll on my physical and mental health. I was typically an embarrassment to be around, one night during another of many spells of cocaine induced psychosis I was given a light grey colored powder to snort. This was my first taste of Lady Heroin and it certainly would not be my last! She and I had a 14 year love affair that spanned 3 states, many disastrous relationships, 30+ trips to detox facilities, 20 or so trips to the county jail and beyond, 7 felony convictions..... Let’s just say I have lain a path of waste and destruction damn near everywhere I have been, as my mother once stated to me "You Have Become A Plague to Every Life You Have Touched" and she wasn't very far off base......

Photo: October, 2009 (in my madness)